The Jebber Family Blog

I was able to stifle my tears long enough that my Dad agreed to have dinner with us. Jordyn was beside herself with excitement. Connor made sure to ride my Dad like a pony, climb him like a tree and partake in the "make me a hot dog" game. I think my Dad was ready to pass out from exhaustion before 6. He's coming back tonight! :)

I have only cried twice today...Thanks in part to my obsession. If I would have known I was going to need a distraction, I would have waited to dive into these books. I'm almost done. I wonder if re-reading them next week will hold my attention as much.

Again, I am sorry for not answering your calls...And your emails. I am not ready to talk yet. More because I don't have any information, and I don't want to talk about any "what if's" right now. I am getting your messages, and mentally thanking you for loving me and caring about me.

Tara is dragging me out of town tonight for a much needed inspirational "conference". As much as I told her I am on the verge of vomiting (sorry...too much information) and I promised that I won't be much company for her, she doesn't seem to want to cancel. :)

I don't either.

I am looking forward to renewing my faith in myself, and my strength in this universe. I just hope that my heart is open enough tonight to find the peace I am looking for. I'll keep you posted.

Posted by Cassie on Friday, May 1, 2009 at 12:53 PM | Permalink